Awake

I'm laying awake at 3:30am the morning of visitation. I can't get back to sleep. Strangely enough, my husband's brother messaged me while I was lying here. He asked how Isaac is doing. How is Issac doing? Good on the surface, but I'm worried about his state of mind. He's so all over the place. 

I'm sick as a dog, but driving the many hours to visitation and I think about sacrifices. Have the last 5 years been a sacrifice? Yes definitely in a way. I just want to go to sleep for another hour and stop rambling, but I'm wide awake. I'm exhausted, but can't sleep.