Irritation

I just feel like I need a small moment to vent. I have been so thankful to be able to having visitation with Isaac. We see each other about every two weeks since he is 3 hours away. At first the experience was completely pleasant. The COs treated the visitors with respect and were friendly. I felt at ease sitting in the visiting room, my eyes only focused on him, but lately it is become irritating and unsettling. A new set of staff have been doing the visits the past number of times, and are not quite as amicable. They barely say hello and have a bad habit of making faces and of making snide comments. The pat downs have been a little too close for comfort and probably too close for what was actually needed. The visiting room staff have repeatedly picked on Isaac for things that every other inmate seems to be evidencing at the same time, and they are down right condescending and impolite about correcting him. So his chair is not in a straight line, so I didn't take the photo ticket up to the desk at the perfect time, so I was apparently sitting on the wrong side of him (even though I sat this way for multiple visits before), so his father did not lift his upper lip high enough. Does this mean that we need to be talked to like less than human? Does this mean that I have to be belittled and given smirks when asked "is that your boyfriend or whatever?" by staff? Is this a race thing? Do they have it out for him? Isaac and I are a multiracial couple and I never in a million years thought that would be an issue. There are tons of interracial couples in the visiting room and they never get bothered. They never have two or three COs watching them at all times.

Isaac does not get in trouble, he and I never do anything wrong during visits. We are just there to see each other and get some quality time together. Why all this hassling? Like I said before, visits went smoothly up to this point. It seemed like things shifted with the different staff. The fact of the matter is that I along with Isaac or afforded no luxuries, we are at the mercy of the system. What am I supposed to do when you have a feeling that the body pat down should not have been like that? Are you supposed to make trouble for yourself and him and maybe jeopardize your visits? What are you supposed to do if the visit staff seems biased, maybe even racist? It's embarrassing for Isaac to be told in front of me and his family that he needs to keep his chair straight 3 times in a row in a voice fitting for a child. He is doing time yes, but he is still a human being. I always wonder to myself, why get into a field, start a career or job doing something that you probably don't like? What is the point of that? I know to some it is just a job, and the inmates are not considered people, just objects to be kept in line. What it comes down to for me is that the hassle of these instances are worth less than the benefit of seeing my love, in the flesh, living and breathing, and waiting for me to come through.